Platform heels, and cute positions. (8/5/11)

I've been lost a little bit, and just when I think it gets better, and when I think I won't be lonely anymore. There it is again. I've been sitting and wondering what the cause of this painful feeling is. Of course, I miss lots of people, and of course the feeling hurts more than anything.. but I've grown too much to know it's that, and I get over it. I'm living, rejected, and maybe on the precipice of major damage to my own being. I need someone desperately. Someone who made me happy from the start.. but was tooken away from me. I need someone who made last year special for me, because thats when I was happy.. thats when I wasn't worried about anything. I need someone who understood me, and knows my place. Someone who didn't take me for granted.. or at least didn't mean to. I don't care if it effects the other people, because I'm just trying to make myself happy, and if my other friends have a problem with it, they obviously don't care about me. Sorry if I'm ranting again.. but this is how I feel.

It's not the end of the world.. (7/29/11)

I literally have no inspiration or thoughts going through my head right now.
I could sit here and rant about terms completely irrelevant to me.. but that seems like a technique I usually do. Honestly, my ambition is not really to be judged or critiqued on my posts.. mainly just to be heard. But this is a legit, complex world I'm living in. I should probably explain who I am before you guess make a big stupid fit about me being a big stupid face. Well Hi. My name is Paris Alcantar. I'm a complicated human. Lots don't understand me.. but I'm just trying to define the purpose of a perpetual underdog.